It isn't easy. [Even after a few months of therapy, Lu Meng still finds it hard to open up about his fears and insecurities. Living with an emotional health caretaker has definitely helped in that regard, but really, he owes a lot of his improvement right now to Sanae and Alvin. These two have seen him at his worst but instead of judging him and deeming him weak, they became his pillars of support, the voices of reason against the dark despair within him.

It's really only to these two that Lu Meng is willing to air his true thoughts. He can't do it fully with anyone else, not without fighting back that evil voice in his head that whispers about how weak he's become, about how he's shamed his lord and his teachers.]

It took me months and I still struggle with accepting that I'm no less a man for confessing my fears and my insecurities. I was brought up to believe that such things are a weakness. That a strong man is one that ignores such emotions and keeps them within, to not bother those around him.

It turns out that it's far harder to openly confront your emotions and to share them with others. But it can be done. I promise.