[He shakes his head.] No. My lord...both my lords, they are not here for me to let them down.
I had been able to overcome my failings. Yet now, there are days when I struggle to even muster a single joyful thought. Days when I am mired in this miserable state, and for all I struggle and I try there seems to be no end to it all. And the longer I flounder in this state, the more I upset those around me.
Everyday I try to tell myself that there will be a light at the end of all of this...but all my determination and hope have fled in the face of this illness. And without them, I am worse than useless. I am a weight that drags everyone about me down.
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I had been able to overcome my failings. Yet now, there are days when I struggle to even muster a single joyful thought. Days when I am mired in this miserable state, and for all I struggle and I try there seems to be no end to it all. And the longer I flounder in this state, the more I upset those around me.
Everyday I try to tell myself that there will be a light at the end of all of this...but all my determination and hope have fled in the face of this illness. And without them, I am worse than useless. I am a weight that drags everyone about me down.