[Hearing a young Lu Meng... It always intrigued Alvin since it's clearly how he was in his youth is starkly different from how he's grown up to be. In some respects, Alvin is the same, and it's testament to just how people tend to grow up. But it's not just some story he's hearing—he knows this is all part of what makes Lu Meng the man he is now, and so he tries to use it as a way to understand him and how it's affecting him right now.
And the most obvious is that need to prove himself worthy—to be a "strong" kind of person not physically, but mentally as well. To fit in. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but there are limits. And as proven here, Lu Meng has gone over it.]
And now you're feeling as if you're no longer that? That you've somehow slipped and let your lord down?
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And the most obvious is that need to prove himself worthy—to be a "strong" kind of person not physically, but mentally as well. To fit in. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but there are limits. And as proven here, Lu Meng has gone over it.]
And now you're feeling as if you're no longer that? That you've somehow slipped and let your lord down?